Ok...last night I got my answer about performing in this weeks show with Gus. I will not be performing. It's not a bad thing 'cause I get to still go and watch as an audience member and feel what they feel. It's good to see it before you participate.

So, last nights rehearsal with Gus was an excellent one. I think that I am beginning to come out of my shell. I feel like I hold a lot back and it takes me a while to get comfortable with a group. I need to start being more confident and sure of myself because when I do, great things happen and there are these magical scenes that we create together.

I think for me the basis of all my scenes should be to just agree and really support my scene partners. The moment I do those things, real stuff happens. When I give my partners gifts in a scene and take their gifts, it really becomes fun to watch. It's funny...when I first started taking improv classes I had not idea what I was doing. Slowly it's starting to make sense and I am getting the bigger picture. I still have a lot of work but the process is a blast. It's like all of a sudden the light turns on in your creative mind and you can finally see it. The minute I step out of the way and try to control it, that's when the magic happens.

One of the things I want to look into is how to better my memory skills. I have a difficult problem with getting into my head and not paying attention, which really costs me. You can't support your scene partners when you are stuck in your head. There's got to be something out there that I can do that would help me. I am thinking like a weight lifter has to stick to a weekly regimine, I could workout my brain, so to speak. I am going to look online today to see if there are excercises that I can do. I am sure meditating once a day would also make a difference in my overall health as well. I just can't seem to relax my mind unless I am watching T.V.

Well, I never made it to Pig rehearsal last night cause I didn't get out of rehearsal in Baltimore until 9:20. It took me almost an hour to get home - totally speeding too. So, I will make the Wednesday rehearsal and hopefully get some playing time in with those guys before our show on Saturday, which I am definetely in!